A new normal????

Our life is different now.  Our family of five is still a family of five but missing a key element.  Last night, Chris and I took the kids to eat at Guy and Mae's.  Delish!  But, on the drive home, it hit that while our time with the other kids is so great, we still feel empty.  I know that these moments will continue to arise FOREVER.  But, they are so strong right now!!  There are many moments when life is going just as it should but many moments when loss hits home.  William is in our hearts and on our minds continuously.

We have all adjusted back into our routine of things.  Chris is working full-time.  And, for once, he poured concrete on the campus of Ottawa University.  I could actually see him at work from my kitchen table!!  First time EVER!! 

My cowgirl wears boots whenever given the chance!

 

Mackenzie is in full swing of first grade.  She is loving her reading time and time on the computer.  She is quite savvy at YouTube videos.  Just in case you are all wondering, there are A LOT of horse videos on You Tube. 

Carson is loving Apple Garden.  This week alone he went to the pumpkin patch and had a Harvest Party, where the most exciting element was feeling the "guts" of a pumpkin.  I know that it must have been a classmate teaching him those great words.  I don't exactly see Ms. Lisa or Ms. Kari saying the "guts" of the pumpkin. 

And, I returned to work three days last week and likely will do three days again this week.  I work at an amazing place that is so understanding of my need to grieve and regroup.  I was pretty darn busy in clinic last week which helped take my mind off of what I have gone through in the last year.  My house is almost becoming mine again.  For those that remember, I was a "little" sick with pregnancy.  So, many different family members and friends have helped out at our house for the last year.  While I couldn't have survived without help, I need to feel empowered again. 

So, OPERATION HOUSE TAKEOVER HAS BEGUN!  Cleaning, cleaning, cleaning.  Organizing, organizing, organizing.  And, a lot of disposing!

Tera....this is for you!  I actually bought a new purse and threw the other out!

The purse is only one of many things that found themselves in FILE 13.