Friday, October 5, 2012

Milk Lady!!

I know I have talked about my life of pumping breastmilk for William since May, but I have never shown any pics of the milk!  And, there was lots of it left over after William passed away.  As a mom with a sick baby, there are so many things out of your control.  But, providing milk for him was in my control.  I relished this control and ran with it.
A chest freezer completely full of milk!


After William went to Heaven, we were left with the question....What are you planning to do with ALL of the milk?  Rushing into a decision seemed wrong, but the milk only lasts for so long in the freezer.  Plus, a baby could benefit from my milk immediately.  So, we gathered the milk from Ronnie's House (well, my in-laws did the gathering) and Children's Mercy Hospital and took it Great-Grandpa's Milk Bank (AKA his deep freeze that had an abundance of milk from the first hospital stay).  Called St. Luke's Human Milk Bank.  But, they could only use my milk for RESEARCH!  The comment was made that it was not okay for other human consumption besides my own child.  Because, I drank caffeine and took an anti-depressant.  Come on, it was good enough for my precious Will but not for any other baby.  Caffeine and Celexa may have been the only way this mom made it through the last 5 months!!!  The thought of Will's milk going only to research made me cringe.  I worked hard for that milk and a baby needed it.  


So, I put the feelers out and received word that 2 babies that I will get to see thrive are going to take it!  Sad as it was to see it go, I am so glad to see Will's milk feed 2 babies!  Audrey and Zachary are receiving Angel Kisses from my boy as they drink his milk.  Audrey needs a digestive system boost---what better way than breastmilk and angel kisses.  And, Zachary needs more milk on the days his mommy must work.  Being a full-time working mom myself, I know that it is hard to keep the dairy barn in full working order when you return to work.  I struggled to provide enough for Mackenzie and Carson when I returned to work.  Providing supplemental milk for Zachary is just perfect!

Zachary's box of milk


My freezer at home is bare--Great Grandpa's still has LOTS of milk available for these 2 precious babies.  And, it was a little hard to swallow and tear provoking as I handed milk out--just another reminder that William went Home just not to my home!  BUT, my ETERNAL HOME where he will wait for his mommy and daddy!  And, where is playing with our family that has passed before us.  I am sure the red-headed blue eyed boy is getting doted on every minute of every day!!

2 comments:

  1. Hi Sara, My name is Tiffany Himes and Hayden Shaw is my son and knows your daughter and I believe they were in K together and sat at the same table during the mothers tea and im also friends with Jamie Walters.... I think donating is such a wonderful thing to do! I donated my extra to Mother Milk Bank in Texas and it helped babies in the NICU!! 2 years ago my cousin lost her daughter at birth and it was so heart breaking. There are so many unanswered questions and the question of WHY all the time. Knowing what my cousin and her husband went thru breaks my heart for you and your families. Her name is Kelsey Ammons Himes if you want to look her up on Facebook. She is a devoted christian who was sat up an organization for infant loss. She is the most loving, caring, thoughtful person you will ever meet. She has MANY resources to help grieving families. I just thought I would share her info with you, because nobody else can know that pain except for another mother who has the same pain. I send my deepest condolences and lots of prayers your way.
    Tiffany Himes

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  2. I am just now getting on my blog. Thank you so much for the information. We have been so blessed by other families who know about the daily struggles. I am going to send your cousin a message through facebook. Again, thanks for keeping the prayers coming.

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